5 Mar 2021

2020 was what could politely be referred to ‘a mess’.  Several things went incredibly wrong, and my life has changed permanently after the trails of the last year.  (My mother, my godfather, and my wife died within four months of each other–yes, I’m a mess) Least of which was that I had a technical error…

14 Dec 2020

My second evening alone without my wife.  (Saturday didn’t count because it was just too damn chaotic!) I had a good-ish day.  Got some work done, had a lekker ‘kuier’ with a good friend, had chicken wings shipped to me all the way from Norway, getting d1nner from down the road, two offers to come…

13 Dec 2020

Everyone – I asked you to let me be. No one listened. Thank you. Obviously, I cannot reply personally to all of you – that will take me 3 years! “Grief is the price we pay for love”, and yeah, as a measure of love’s depths, I’d say it’s pretty fucking deep!  It was so…

12 Dec 2020

Gentle reader – There is no easy way to say it, so I’m just gonna say it. My wife, Andrea, has died. After a hell of a struggle, she lost her battle with breast cancer. She was 44 years old. I know that humanity is curious. That’s okay. We all are. You want to know…

The Pleasure of Writing Wrongly.
9 Dec 2018

English is not my first language. While I have completely anglicised, my mother tongue is Afrikaans.  Out of my three serious relationships, my first two were with Afrikaans girls.  I only changed my home language to English once I moved in with Andrea. Having said that, I could speak conversational English from when I was…

15 Nov 2018

Every creative knows ‘The fear of the blank page’.  Whether you’re a writer, a painter, a sketch artist, a composer—or anyone of the countless creatives—you will know how intimidating a blank canvas can be. I know this fear very well – when there is something bubbling up and expelling it is non-negotiable.  But how, exactly? …

12 Nov 2018

Since I was a wee lad, three things were always present in my mind.  (It was only when I was much, much older, when I realised that any of these three, never mind the combination of all of them, is rather unique.  “You mean you do NOT think this way?”) The first one was a…